if only you could see me now..

"when am i gonna understand that when you left, it means forever?", that was my last text to her.. it did not answers the question she asked me, "how is ur gigi?", with a smiley.. it was either a big mistake or the right thing to do.. she did not reply my message.. she left me to wonder.. did she give up on me or she just mad? i did not mean it to be a statement, i was hoping for the answer that will answers my question.. she usually has the answers for all my questions but not this time.. i know it was a dumb thing to do.. i'm not being complicated, yeah maybe a little.. but i thought she understands me better than anyone else.. or maybe the answer could hurt me bad so she keep it to herself.. but i like to think that she did not answers because she knew that someday i will find her again like i did before.. i don't like to think that she is bound to the promise she made, that she will always there for me.. god knows how much i miss her.. i miss waking her up at 3 in the morning just to hear her voice.. i miss singing her songs on the phone.. if i could have one night with her, i'm gonna make things right again.. but i guess i just have to wait for i don't know how long.. the longer it takes, the harder it gets for me to see her.. she knows that..