true happiness

i remember when i was five-year-old, i stayed with my grandma for a month.. i can't remember why i decided to stay with her away from my family for a month, i'm sure it must be a hell of good reason and i wish i still have the brain cells for that memory in my head so i could remember better.. but i guess smoking does effect.. damn! i still remember the smell of her hair, "rambut tok bau macam biskut merry la tok!", god knows how much i miss the smell.. back to the day when i thought the value of 50 cents is is way too much for a small kid like me to ask.. i should have ask more for being a good boy! kidding.. "cucur kodok tok best la, kalau dapat makan hari ni kan best!", my favorite.. for being a good boy i got what i deserved.. she was the only woman that understand all my needs.. and i would trade anything just to spend one day with her again.. all these years of seeking for the true hapiness, i forgot that i've found it.. back to the day when power rangers is everything.. i've found my true happiness when i never thought of looking for it.. i'm no longer in a quest for the true happiness anymore, i'm in a quest for the lasting happiness now.. im not really sure where to begin actually..

i miss you tok chah.. al-fatihah..