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lastnightleftover.blogspot.com

the last night leftover

"days disappear and my world keeps changing, i feel you here and it keeps me sane"

new song

My love please,

No more lies I planned to stay,

At least for a while,

Before I die,

Before the end of time

Oh please,

Prove me wrong,

I’m not as strong,

I lost my faith along the way,

Make me believe,

That love does exist,

And your love will take me higher,

Take me higher,

I never knew love,

Like this before.

this is not the end.

i will leave it all behind for now. whatever happened in the past taught me many things i need to know. i'm not trying to forget, but to forgive myself. to make way for a better future, this is what i need to do. i need to say goodbye, a farewell not a funeral. goodbye my love, my inspirations, my butterflies in the stomach. you will forever here in my heart and my mind.

i will deactivate my blog soon. three years of extraordinary experiences written by this ordinary guy however will come to an end. but this is not the real ending, actually a fresh start for a new journey ahead. just remember, the real unsung hero will never dies, he lives forever in the heart of people who will never forget him. goodbye all. :)

"sick cycle carousel, this is a sick cycle carousel"

now the one you once loved is leaving

i miss you, but i can't tell you that. i need you, but i can't tell you that either. i had my chance but i ruined it. feeling regret is not going to take me a step closer to you. but instead, i fall deeper. before this, i never take my time to understand how special you are, how much you needed attention. or just to be there as a lover when you needed me the most. selfish, that's what i am. but now i understand the pain u had to deal with, it hurts. a lot. now i get to feel it for myself for another few months, years, god knows. serve me right.

now here i am, with the responsibility to carry around all the memories we had since that's all i have. i see you everywhere, i think about you night and day. the smile, your eyes, hugs, kisses playing in my head like in a silent movie. i was once a rainbow before i am hurricane. forgive me for what i've done. you do deserve better.

how do i forget the thing i wanna keep the most? how do i lie to myself? time will heal the deepest wound. a friend told me that. i hope she's right.

i miss being happy. back then the old me don't even need weed to be happy. but now weed is the medicine; the cure for my sickness. at least for a while before i finally found the true happiness again. for that i wanna start something fresh, new places, meeting new people. i will stop running for now and face the music. god if you there, help me get through all this.

New Song

I look at you from many different kinds of views.

To understand the perfect human form that is you.

I can’t stop thinking how could I win your heart.

It’s a matter of time and how far would you dive for it.

I've waited for you but you never had a clue.

The perfect end, the one I've been searching for and fighting for.

All I need is right in front of me,

All I see is the future of you and me,

I won’t stop believing.

bunga

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